Anna Gillions | Singer Songwriter

Lyrics

Moving Through

So I pass my anger on to you

‘Coz that’s the convenient thing to do

You pays your money you takes your choice

Now only one of us has a voice

I’m not going to leave mine swinging here

Shouting to the breeze like a souvenir

I’ll meet my devil I’ll pay my due

Moving on I’m moving through

Lost in time, with you, my universe

No reason, no rhyme. In a parallel lifetime still we try

I change shape to accommodate you

Nothing more that I can do

Store resentment in my account

And wait for the day

My credit runs out

One year on, Happy anniversary

New faces, old dreams. But the devil he looks so different from here

Well hey ho what do you know

I bet you’ve got it on video

Indebted to those who break me bread

I still stay loyal

To the one that’s dead

Strange to think that some of it was me

Whose baggage, whose crime? Inextricably linked as your path with mine

On my soapbox once again

Realise my voice has changed

Cast off the tones whose time has gone

I’ll find a new voice

And sing my song

Copyright Anna Gillions 2005

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Can't Stop

The train’s delayed again

Twenty precious minutes when I could be with you

But I feel your touch in every breeze

See your face in every sunbeam

And your voice whispers to me through the rail tracks

Even without you I am with you

I can’t stop kissing you

Did I know you before I loved you

Or love you before I knew

The world is wonderful because you are

For I sense your aura all around me

Feel your hands holding my heart

And dance with you along this crowded platform

Even without you I am with you

I can’t stop kissing you

And I can’t stop kissing you

Even while my breath stops short

And I think I may die

And I can’t stop kissing you

Even while my heart skips a beat

Leaving me higher than high

Higher than high

I can’t stop kissing you

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Every Mother

She sits on her own

She can hear the baby crying as she sits on her own

Fingers in her ears, feeling weary to the bone

Too tired to weep

The crying just gets louder, and she’s too tired to weep

Resting her head against the wall, please God let me get some sleep

Rests her head against the wall, please God let me get some sleep

Day after day

No-one to talk to, just the child day after day

And now her prayers have changed, please Lord take us both away

Now her prayers have changed, please Lord take us both away

And what if she

Said I can’t cope

I need help

Well what a joke

An unfit Mum

So scorned is she

In this perfect society

But what are we?

Does she love her son?

This unfit mother, does she love her son?

Well if we’d just give her a break – right now she’s too numb

If we’d just give her a break – she’s only just begun

If we’d just give her a break

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Trust

Dear Sir, I had to write to you, as I have a story to tell

I know that you won’t turn your head away, for this is my personal hell

On June 25 I was ill but alive

And they brought me to your door

When I left, I was worse off then before

(Chorus)

Mr Bloggs we’re so sorry for your distress

It really is a shame

We believe that the doctors acted in your best interest

And no-one is to blame

Dear Sir, I asked to see the Doctor; had to find somebody who’d care

They told me he’d visit in the morning, but by noon he still wasn’t there

They said you must understand he’s a very busy man

And he’s got so much to do

What on earth makes you think he’s prioritise you?

(Chorus)

Dear Sir, I’d been attacked you see, I was in a terrible mess

The Doctor finally ticked his boxes, diagnosed me with post traumatic stress

A nurse said that he would desensitise me

Pinned me up against a wall

They all saw, but no-one intervened at all

(Chorus) In the NHS we trust

Dear Sir, what do I have to say to you to make you listen to me

Perhaps if I made up crazy stories you’d take me more seriously

My head fell off and they used it as a mop

Then they kicked it round the floor

They liked to inject me with drugs to correct me

Sir, dear Sir, won’t you listen listen listen!

(Chorus)

Mr Bloggs now you must stop being such a pest

It really is a shame

Don’t you know, don’t you realise that this is the NHS

And no-one is to blame

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Hey Boy

Hey boy won’t you give me a sign

Won’t you show me that you can hear

Hey boy am I wasting my time

Am I wasting my time right here

Coz I’ve been sitting here all night long

Just waiting for you to see

That there ain’t nobody loves you this much

No-one loves you as much as me

And I’ve been giving up all my prayers

But they’re falling on deaf ears

And I just want you to be ok

Perhaps they’re right and it’s all gone

And there’s nothing left to know

But then your beautiful eyes meet mine

And I feel myself let go

And I’m falling back to days gone by

When we lived another way

The secrets that were yours and mine

And the moon across the bay

God knows I’d give anything

To have you here with me

And I’ve been fighting for you so long

Now I fight for you to be free

Some people don’t understand

They think they’re too grand for me

They think one touch is more than enough

They’ve seen all there is to see

But I’ve been sitting here day to day

And I’ve seen the change inside

As I defend your dignity

I relinquish all my pride

And I know how many people love you

You’ve left no-one unchanged

But I’m still the one who is here when they turn out the lights

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Don't Walk on the Grass

Don’t walk on the grass

Keep your toe to the line

Leave your questions unasked

And let your conscience be blind

Let it be blind

Don’t walk on the grass

You hear screams late at night

Just turn your head the other way

She’s probably alright

And in the morning, don’t read the headlines

For fear of what they say

So if there’s hundreds of children all starving to death

You just keep your nose clean, don’t stick out your neck

Don’t walk on the grass

You might leave a footprint behind

Don’t walk on the grass

You know you’ve got to conform

Never let it be said

That you defied the norm

And if they ask you, hide from the spotlight

Roll over play dead

So if you see other nations being cruelly oppressed

No no don’t interfere, their government knows best

Don’t walk on the grass

You might leave a footprint behind

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One Foot in Front

One foot in front of the other baby, just walk on by

Put your best foot forward honey, don’t even ask me why

I know we were having a conversation

And getting on just fine

But I feel you looking for a new sensation

And I’m not gonna cross that line

So I know you think you want me

But baby trust me

You’d get hurt by me

One foot in front of the other baby, just turn away

No looking over your shoulder now coz there’s nothing left to say

Maybe you were looking for the one

Who’s gonna set your heart on fire

But honey, that ain’t happening here

It’s just mindless desire

So I know you think you love me

You’d like it to be true

But baby trust me

I’m no good for you

This bed ain’t big enough for the both of us

I take up too much room

I’d want to be the most important thing to you

But you’ll get no return

Coz I can’t give it

One foot in front of the other baby, don’t speak my name

Please don’t reach out to me coz I’m so scared I’ll do the same

And before you know it we’ll be skin on skin

And reaching for heart to heart

And then all the rows and bitterness

As we watch it fall apart

So I know you think you need me

You might believe you do

But baby trust me

This bed ain’t big enough for the both of us

I take up too much room

I’d want to be the most important thing to you

But you’ll get no return

Coz I can’t give it

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Travel Well

Another crossroads on the rise

So much packing, planning, changing,

No time for goodbyes

So much to do, so much to say

Don’t know where the path will take us

But we’re honour bound to follow come what may

Travel well

For I know that life has many things in store

As you travel on your way

Travel well

And I’m sure we’ll find a language

With which to share our stories someday

Travel well

Seasons change, the waters ebb and flow

Some days someone’s frown can knock you down

But you still can’t let go

Sometimes there’s nowhere left to hide

So throw open all the windows

It’s time to turn a light on deep inside

Travel well

For I know that life has many things in store

As you travel on your way

Travel well

And I’m sure we’ll find a language

With which to share our stories someday

Travel well

At the bottom of the hole

There is a jewel that will feed you forever

Travel well

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Red Light

Red light, shine bright

All my hopes on you tonight

Something that doesn’t change

Red light, shine bright

Keep my love safe tonight

In a world that’s been rearranged

And I’m haunted now by irrational fears

They crawl out of the wall to mock my tears

Red light, shine bright

Guide me safe home tonight

Hands clenched on the wheel

Gloved hands, gloved heart

They can tear my soul apart

If they can find it

Beneath the steel

And I give my all but it’s never enough

So all I can do is to sing you

(Chorus)

Aroha, aroha,

Tihe mauriora (I salute you)

Aroha, aroha nui

Kia koa koe

Haere ma

Red light, too bright

Why do you still shine tonight

Don’t you know that he’s gone

How trite, red light

“Don’t you think she’s doing alright?”

They think it’s over

It’s just begun

So the faces recede back into the walls

Leaving me in a void where I sing you

(Chorus)

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Running Blind

One of those lazy hazy crazy days

Sitting safe and warm

Watching the rain fall

The wind can howl, it can rage

It can’t touch you

Nothing can touch you

Follow the pattern of the drops upon the window

What do you see? Do you see me? Do you see me?

Coz I’m no different

The way that I feel has not changed

It’s just that sometimes you can’t see

Me smile through the rain

Sometimes you get to feeling so alone

No-one left to turn to

Nowhere to go

Open you eyes, you’re running blind

Your search is over

But you’re still looking

What for?

Search the flames, for a trace of a familiar face you see

Do you see me? Do you see me?

Coz I’m no different

The way that I feel has not changed

It’s just that sometimes when you’re trying to get closer in

Your breath upon the glass can cloud your vision of the way life’s meant to be

So, when you get to feeling so alone

Reach out your hand

Remember me

See me

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